Living in a state of fear will ruin your life. Fear about money will only keep you from having money. Fear about your health will only keep you sick. Stress has been scientifically proven to be a leading cause of physical and mental illness. Fear is stress.
Since I live with my sister we share almost everything. That being said, I had to wait to read Rachel’s second book. I started I am a badass by Jen Sincero. A book that Tyra, had been suggesting I read for a long time. This book changed my life. It’s one the easiest, most straight forward, honest and uplifting books you could read. I sat there reading each page twice, letting the words sink in. Everything she was saying resonated with me in every aspect of my life. All of my worries, money and relationship troubles. I cried though many chapters of this book as I could feel it changing my outlook on life. I read the book in 2 weeks. It took a while since I would savour each chapter and page, every tip she gave I would practice it. I would read it in the morning and it would light a fire in me for the entire day. I finished it, read the resources she listed in the back and ordered something new. While waiting for the new book, I read it a second time.
The suggested book I ordered was Heal your life by Louise Hay. This seemed like my next go-to while in the process of trying to heal my body. Louise Hay is most famous for her reversal of her own Cancer diagnosis. With thorough mental and physical cleansing within six months she was given the all clear. She was a therapist that spent her life helping others with mindset changes that resulted in healing physical ailments. While I was waiting for the book to arrive I started doing a second meditation at night. Louise provides many bedtime meditations to fall asleep to on Youtube. The first few nights took adjusting to. I sleep with a sound machine to drown out the noise from others talking, so inviting someone directly into bed with me was a bit odd. I actually got used to it really fast. I’m usually awake for the first 7 minutes and I let the rest of the time just ramble on as I sleep. I let my subconscious listen to the affirmations. Louise encourages this as she believes our subconscious is what truly holds us back from healing. We can consciously try to be aware of what we watch, think, eat and say but our subconscious is harder to train. Our subconscious remembers absolutely everything. From feelings, to sensations and scents. It remembers all the good but unfortunately it remembers the bad too. From our first kiss, the names we were called in school and even the person who “ghosted” you last year whose name you don’t even remember now. These little events in our lives cause trauma for our subconscious that we’re not aware of. Within two weeks of listening to bedtime meditations I fully believe this is helping me be more positive and see myself in a brighter light. Since I keep a tracker of almost everything in my life from stress levels to food and exercise I noticed how I had started to have many more good days since I started the bedtime meditation.
I had also watched some of Dr. Joe Dispenza’s Youtube videos. He explains the science behind positive versus negative thinking. He has proven that just changing your thinking patterns can make physical changes in your body. He has done thousands of brain scans while providing test subjects with placebos who have healed themselves just by the thought of themselves healing. Proving that you can physically change your genes so you no longer have the disease, that’s crazy stuff. However, his meditations are between forty-five minutes to an hour long everyday and that was far too overwhelming to start off with. He’s very scientific in the way he talks, which is great to know the proven benefits of this journey, but left me stuck since the videos lack actual "to-do’s”. There are a ton of real life testimonials from people who have healed themselves with Dr. Joe’s work, they are truly inspiring and I listen to them from time to time when doubt creeps in.
Since I was tight with money, I started to try all the things I could that were free. I started with what I could do just by being in the damn house all day. I journaled what I was grateful for everyday. It was nothing dramatic and still to this day, it really is the little things that count. Something as simple as paying a bill, or finally getting a good nights rest, all matter. I wrote down my goals and dreams. What would I do if money wasn’t an issue? What do I want my everyday life to look like? I write for the present, the end of the year and even the next 5 years. Everything that I could imagine I wanted my life to entail. What I want to look like and how excited I would feel when I could tell my family I’ve accomplished a goal. I started to feel better just doing this. I was becoming more aware when a negative thought popped into my mind and I started replacing it with a positive one. It takes a lot of practice and effort to always be aware of what you’re thinking. I won’t lie when I say it takes time, but it’s worth it. How many more years do I suffer when I know I no longer have to. Daily practice of journaling, meditation, learning and re-wiring my thinking patterns has become a second full time job for me, but it’s the one that will really pay off in the end.
Hay House starting to send me emails about a virtual summit they were hosting. This was a huge freebie. Everyday they sent me up to eight free lessons from the summit to watch for forty-eight hours. They were from a wide variety of healers with all different backgrounds. They were doctors, Holistic Nutritionists, Spiritual Guru’s and ordinary people who had stories of curing their illness through self healing. Incredible stories about mind and health transformations, curing diseases from cancer to food intolerances, all backed by scientific research and testing. I took advantage and listened to them all day, everyday for a week. If you want to change your life with no cost, there are hundreds of ways you can. I may have paid for the books, but with libraries open again you may not have to. There are too many free resources online not to start today. What are you waiting for?
The blogs I’ve written so far, and the next couple are all in the past. I started writing during quarantine thinking this was going to be a book, so consider them chapters. Now, I know all of this is working because it has been for the past six months. There is so much more to tell since new experiences are happening almost daily for me. I’m no longer the same person I was in March and I am filled with so much gratitude for this new life.
